About Love

Monday, March 18, 2013

You are all I know of love, how can I ask for more?


If I had regrets.....
I shouldn't have looked at you from the first
Cause your image is etched in my memory
Absolutely indelible

If I had regrets.....
I shouldn't have smiled back at you
Cause your smiley face melted my heart
Remarkably dazzling

If I had regrets.....
I shouldn't have let you come to my world
Cause your shadow kept following me
Truly unstoppable

If I had regrets.....
I shouldn't have  heard about your love
Cause your words repeated in my mind
Really could not be silenced

If I had regrets.....
I shouldn't have let you kiss me
Cause you flew to the blue sky
Indeed miraculous

If I had regrets.....
I shouldn't have spent the times with you
Cause the stories between us kept floating in my head
Definitely unforgettable

If I had regrets.....
I shouldn't have shed tears for you
Cause You were not here
Tremendously drowning in emptiness

If I had regrets.....
I shouldn't have waited here for you
Cause I longed for our moments together
Heartily missing you

Sunday, March 17, 2013

I am back to the place where your love has always been enough for me


I killed all senses of my love for you
When it seeded, i stepped on it
When it sprouted, i trimmed it
When it grew, i pulled it out

But love kept growing in my heart
I couldn't trim it anymore
The more I wanted to stab it
It grew twice than I thought

I never gave myself any chances
Cause I thought  it was impossible to be true
I tried hard not to admit it
That I was already  in love with you

I kept asking myself
How could I be possibly in love with you?
Was it wrong to fall for you?
Why did  I feel so terrified to admit it?

Our distance was only one step
When you whispered if I had ever loved you
I kept be in silence, motionless
Till you walked away and never looked back

It's sad to remember the past
When I found out the true feeling for you
When I denied everything
The worst denial that I have ever done in my life

And now, I am still here
It still  hurts badly even after so many years passed
I still can't run away from your shadow, not even a bit
Only regretting everything

Ki'taxa vathia' mes sta ma'tia sou ke i'da to me'llon mas - I looked deep into your eyes and saw our future


There is one time in our life
We truly believe
We find someone who can completely turn our world around
We tell him/her anything that we’ve never shared with others
He/she will absorb everything we say and actually want to hear more

We share hopes, dreams, goals for the future
We also share so many disappointments that life has thrown at us
When something  happens, we can’t wait to tell him/her about it
he/she is not embarrassed to cry with us when we are hurting
Laugh with us when we make a fool of ourself

One day maybe  he/she will hurt our feelings or make us feel like we are not good enough
But the other day he/she will build us up and show us the things about ourself that make us special
There is no pressure but only a quiet calmness when he/she is around.
We can be ourself and not worry about what he/she will think of us

Things that never interested us before become fascinating
Because we know they are important to him/her
We think of him/her in everything we do.
Simple things bring him/her to our mind 
The song we hear, the view we see

We may not be his/her first, his/her last, or his/her only
He/she  loved before, he/she may love again
But if he/she loves you now, what else matters?
He/she is not perfect
We aren't either
The two of us may never be perfect together

He/she may not be thinking about us every second of the day
Don't change him/her
Don't analyze
Don't expect more than he/she can give

No relationship is perfect, ever
There are always some ways you have to bend
To compromise
To give something up in order to gain something greater
The love we have for each other is bigger than these small differences.

So smile when he/she makes you happy
Let him/her know when he/she makes you mad
Miss him/her when he/she is not around

We open our heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day
But in opening our heart, we also will experience  love and joy 

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

For always we will go on beyond good bye


Some memories of happiness are not easy to forget
Cause every time other people ask about you
I will smile and say.....
Never thought I would meet you before
You brought love to my life 
Through your affection you were telling me
There would be happily ever after

Looked at your face again
I still found out that.....
You were the chord in every music I played
You were the rythm in every dance I performed
You were the crayons in every painting I drew
You were the words in every poetry I wrote
You led every step we took into the horizon of happiness

A few years passed.....
The sun warmed the whole earth in summer
The rain showered all flowers in spring
The yellow leaves fell in autumn
The freezing snow covered all the ground in winter
We kept our every moment in happiness
I locked them deep inside my heart

Our goodbye seemed like yesterday
I never regret spending time with you
Took all  the pain with me
Held all the tears of my loneliness
Still never forget sending prayers through the wind
No matter where you are, whom you are with
There's nothing else but happiness




There's more to love than only bitterness and lies


Life is full of surprises. Sometimes you will find out, it is full of happiness, but the other times, you might find out, it is full of bitterness.
Here I was, hiding inside my dark room. I remembered, Anna, my best friend, she told me, "You should move on, don't look at the past, one day you'll find someone who is right for you."
It was easy for her to say that, cause she doesn't know how it feels when I lost someone who I really cared about. It's hurt me badly. It has been a few months, I lost contact with him,

Suddenly my cell was ringing. Noel calling.....He said, he wanted to see me.

Almost twilight I was sitting in the cafe, waiting for Noel. Not long after that, Noel came. He looked different now. More matured. I had to admit it.
"How are you?" he asked me first.
"As you can see, I am alright, how bout you?"
"Just okay" he replied, "Congratulation by the way for your scholarship."
"Thank you."
There was a silence between us for a moment. It was a really awkward moment. We were so close for a long time and now both of us are just like strangers.

"When are you gonna go to Japan?" He tried  to continue our conversation.
"This sunday."
We ate our food in silence. He looked kind of nervous.
"What do you want to talk about?" I asked him.
"Connie.....I've told you once, if we broke up, i can get another girl easily, another one who is much better than you. But I was wrong. I wanna us to be together again." He tried to hold my hand.
I pulled my hand back, "What is wrong with you,  Noel?"
"I mean it," He wanted to convince me.
"Don't be like this Noel, you did this only cause you felt guilty for what you have done to me," I said quietly
"It's not like that, I really mean it." He looked so disappointed. "I wanna us to be together, not cause I feel guilty, but cause I finally realized, there's no one as good as you are and I still love you as much as the first time we were in relationship."

He gave me a purple box. He still remembered my favorite colour.
"Just think about it, please? I'll wait for you at the airport, can you give me the answer before leaving for Japan?" He put the box on my right palm, "Wear it if you say yes......"
"I'll think about it." I put the box in my bag.

Sunday at the airport. He smiled at me, "So........???"
I glanced at him. He stared at my neck. I was wearing a purple scarf.
He bowed sluggishly, "I get it........."
"Noel........."
"Hhhmmm........."
"Can you untie my scarf, please?" He put his arms around my neck and untied my scarf.
"CONNIE!!! Gosh, you almost made me get a heart attack......." I blushed. He could see that I was wearing a necklace with two rings on it, the one that he gave me the other day in the cafe.
"Three years is a long time. You have to wait for two years. Can you make it?"
"I will always try my best. Don't be a naughty girl in Japan, when you are back here, I wanna you to put one of those ring on  my finger." He kissed my forehead affectionately. I was drowning in his arms.

Three Years later.....
I got this short message on my cell:
"What date are you coming home? Everyone missed you alot here, especially ME"
I touched the rings on my necklace. I smiled........

 Like the sound of silence calling,
 I hear your voice and suddenly
 I'm falling, lost in a dream.
 Like the echoes of our souls are meeting,
You say those words and my heart stops beating.
 I wonder what it means.
What could it be that comes over me?
At times I can't move.
At times I can hardly breathe.
When you say you love me
The world goes still, so still inside and
When you say you love me
For a moment, there's no one else alive
(JOSH GROBAN)
 

Monday, January 21, 2013

Puoi solo dire, che piu ti fa soffrire, piu ancora l'amerai *


*All you'll know for sure is the more she/he makes you suffer, the more you find you love her/him

Everyday my heart aches
Everyday my tears fall
Everyday my mind is empty
Zillion memories of us

Following the traces of our love 
Still I can hear your tender voice
Still I can feel your warm touch
Still I can see your sparkling eyes

Wanting to stay
Forcing not to move
Hoping you might come back someday
Helplessly leaning on nowhere

If I could turn back the time
If I could love you again
If I could give my heart one more time
Surrendering my wishful dream

Ignoring my feelings 
Resisting my longing 
Erasing my memory
But my heart betrayed me

Please don't go
Don't leave me alone
Don't make me cry in pain
Hearing the echoes of my scream

Tempus fugit, non autem memoria (Time flies, but not memory)


Now I am going to leave you with a short paragraph that my favorite author "Ika Natassa" wrote on one of her novel "Anthology of Feelings" last November 2011 (She got this text from her best friend on new year eve a couple of years ago) and I hope this will lead you to do something that will change your life forever, like it did hers and probably mine too.........

"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friends or maybe even fall in love with them and you'll cry because time is flying by.

So take lots of pictures, laugh a lot, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. You just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend in need, fall asleep wathing the sun come up, stay up late, and smile until your face hurts.

Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, LIVE IN THE MOMENT because every second you spend angry or upset is second of happiness you can never get back."

So guys.......I wanna thank you for a lot of things during our friendship and all the time we have spent together.......

"for being the best of friends anybody could have, for listening and comforting me with your words, for laughing with me whenever shit happens, for understanding me like a friend that knows me for more than you have, for always believing in me, for sharing our silliness, for your calmness and patience, for our conversations about nothing and everything"

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Cuivis dolori remedium est patientia (Patience is the cure of all suffering)


Screaming I love you 
That’s what my mind keeps on telling me
Shouting I love you
That’s what my heart wants you to know it
Saying I love you
That’s what my lips can't say to you

It aches every minute
It’s hard to breathe
It feels so freezing
Drowning in emptiness
Torturing my little world
Never thought that I would love you like this

I'm standing here
Like a pieces of a broken glass
My eyes can't hide the pain
Cause I can't let you out of my heart
Even without your promise in return
Gazing at you, without a single word

Need to erase you 
Need to remove you
Need to send you away
Need to forget you
But you've been engraved in my heart
You've etched in my memory

For the love is so exhausting
Makes me afraid to face the days
For the feeling is so bitter
Makes me break into flowing tears
With my parched lips
Still I called your name again in silence

Give Thanks For A Lttle And You Will Find Alot


     "Your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask him!" ~ Matthew  7:11

God the Almighty has given everything  to us before we ask it from Him.
Take a look  around you. 
Look at the plants, animals, and other human beings.
The earth and sun. 
The moon and stars.

Did you realize that God the Almighty gave them all for free?
God created all of them for the happiness and welfare of human beings.

What does God expect from us?

First, we are expected to cultivate, nurture, preserve all of God's creations.
We should care for and do something about the nature  so that the earth can be a comfortable place to live.

Second, we are expected to ask while working.
Such as The farmers who ask for good harvests while continuing to plant and care for.
We work together with God for the good of our fellows.

Therefore we ask for His grace so we can  be able to take part in His loving works.
We plead that all the things that we do are always blessed and bring prosperity to others.

"Dear God.....
We thank you for equipping  us with all the capabilities so we could live well in this world.
Teach us to use all those capabilities in our work and this way we would like to praise and glorify thee.
Amen."

The sky isn't always blue and the sun doesn't always shine


Do you remember?
Those days when our love was beautiful
When you are the only one who made me smile
Like blooming flowers in the dry desert

Do you remember?
Those days when i was thinking of you everyday
Even when I closed my eyes
Like seeing fireflies in the day light

Do you remember?
Those days when you looked at me with love
Saying "It's me in you and You are in me"
Like writing poetry in heaven

Do you remember?
Those days when you kissed me tenderly
Made me trembling in your arms
Like paralyzing all the nerves

Do you remember?
That day when you left me here
Our journey that never reached the destination
Like leaves drifting in the river

I will remember
I was drowning in thought of you
Knowing that you  are still in my heart
May the wind  let him know this longing


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