"Forever is not a word...rather a place where two lovers go when true love takes them there."

If i had a little more time

I hope to give you the entire world

I can not change

All that i was missed before

My longings could only spiral like in a dream

If i had a little more time

I want to realize all your wishes

Too many dreams

Too many promises

Awaiting every night

Realizing gradually

Let all the sorrows end with each sunset

Let me be by your side

Completing every day of your life

Even if you are in the edge of the sky

Two hearts are true like a kite joined by one string

Let all happiness meander before sunrise

Let me see your smile when you are in your happiest moment

Though you are on the surface of the earth

Our love must be till forever more

Inspired fr Starlit - the taiwanese serial

When u say u love me, the world stops 4 a moment, the stars stop shining, the moon stops glowing, the earth stops breathing

People said theres only a thin line between hate n love. Dont hate sumone 2 much cz u might b in love with that one. The more u hate sum1 n the more u think bout that one.........

Dear diary.........

I met him @ the hotel X, he held a fans conference.....Who doesnt adore him nowadays? I tried 2 get closer 2 c him but im 2 small to get through the hordes of people standing. Suddenly ppl rushed n chased him cz he was leaving the hotel. People kept pushing each other, i fell down near his feet......he didnt have 2 take a look lil bit. What an arrogant actor!!! I hate him since that day

Dear diary........

OMG! OMG! Cant believe it, i got a chance 2 b a host in tv program 4 a week with my idol in Maluku. But when i saw his name, i was not 2 eager 2 do it......Its him again. Its true that i requested 2 b with him in that show but that before i knew how arrogant he is.

Dear diary.......

First day with him.........Cant deny how adorable he is. But i hate him more, when he walked in to rest room, he hit me. He said sorry with flat face. What the hell.

Dear diary........

Second day with him, its so tiring cz i had 2 pretend smiling n b friendly with him during the show. He said, u seem hating me so much n i dont know y u do that, if u dont like doing the show with me, other girls will love 2 take ur place. A girl shouldnt b so mean if not.....u wont have a boyfriend sumday!!!......Grrrrrrrrrr.

Dear diary........

Third day with him.......He said, come with me!!! He held my hand n dragged me 2 the beach. Oh my gosh, what a beauty, SUNSET. Always love it. I looked @ him, said thank u through my eyes. He smiled n my heart started 2 beat faster. Oh NO!!!!!

Dear diary.......

Fourth day with him......He knocked @ my door. Its 5 in the morning. He said, Hurry up n dragged me 2 the beach

again. He surprised me one more time. SUNRISE. I was really grateful cz i can c such a beauty fr God. He said, i enjoy spending time with u. I was blushing indeed.

Dear diary........

Fifth day with him, just yesterday i still hated him so much n now i cant stop thinking bout him. I cant b in love with him?????? Im so confused n frustrated. Sumone out there please help me, i got no clues @ all. Being around him made me nervous 2 death. Huft.

Dear diary........

Sixth day with him, i bought some souvenirs 4 all crews in this show cz tomorrow is our last day in Maluku. I had a special one 4 him, just bout knocking his door when i heard 2 people was talking quite hard.........

"I asked u 2 b nice with her not spending ur day with sunset n sunrise with her. What will ur fans think bout u if they know u have a gf!!!!!!"........his manager.

"I just want her 2 treat me friendly. U know i cant b in love with such ordinary girl like her....I just pretend 2 b nice so she wont c me as her enemy during this show......." thats his voice.

I ran into my room with tears. I should know that he's an actor, pretending is what he uses 2 do. Im the foolish one.

Dear diary........

Last day with him. @ the airport, looked @ our pics on my cell. Blah. I hate him just like the first day i saw him. He said, did i do sumthing wrong? Just stay away fr me, will u???? I closed my eyes, tried not 2 cry.

Dear diary........

Few days before valentine day. A month after the show, i saw him on tv. I missed him indeed.

"Do u have a gf ?" ........the host

"Not right now, but i have sumone that i lke"..........

My heart hurt.........

Dear diary........

Valentine day @ cafe with girls in my gang. OMG, hes the guest star!!!! I knew girls setting me up tonite.

"Whats the biggest surprise tonite?".........the host.

"Hhmm, I know u r here. Please forgive me. I dont mean 2 hurt u. What i feel 4 u, its not an acting or pretending. I do enjoy 2 b with u. I do like u, maybe already in love with u"

"Whoah n whos the lucky girl tonite?"...........the host again.

He walked toward my desk, whispered into my ear.....will u b my valentine?......

Dear diary.......

Im really grateful cz i have such a wonderful friendship fr girls in my gang n now i have a relationship with him. God really knows how 2 make me happy. I LOVE U............

I dedeicated this note 4 all my friends ........thank u 4 such a beautiful n amazing friendship n 2 the one that i care so much.........thank u 4 letting me know what love is. I love u all, happy valentine ♥ ♥ ♥

n lovely music 2 accompany u.....♥ ♥ ♥

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SnMoDDbEccE&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YTNSwOFUf30&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7N8fty79U6Y&feature=relmfu

I never found the words to say, You're the one i think about each day

Many relationships are broken, lost and changed because there is no commitment

'I love her cz of the way she treats me'

'I love him cz of the way he makes me feel'

'I love her cz she's so beautiful'

'I love him cz he fell down @ my feet with roses n jewels'

People often underlie that love things over sumthing that they r considered beautiful. It may sound romantic n do such a thing is not wrong @ all. However, sumtimes things get 2 romantic that we often hear people say it in movies.

Rarely out of them and maybe our own thinking

'I love her cz of the way she treats me'

What happens if she stops treating u the way u love?

'I love him cz of the way he makes me feel'

Then what happens if he stops making u feel that way?

'I love her cz she's so beautiful'

Three weeks later, she got an accident

'I love him cz he fell down @ my feet with roses n jewels'

Out of blue, hes broke that he couldnt buy u roses n jewels anymore

Rarely they r saying

'I love u cz i want 2'

That's commitment. commitment is a source of strength, not sumthing that makes people afraid to face it.

Commitment is a strength 4 a girl 2 c the good n the bad of her boyfriend, accept him when he's handsome n when he looks so ugly, yawning when he wakes up evry morning.

Commitment is a strenght 4 a man when he meets another girls n chooses 2 go home, has dinner with his girlfriend while sharing stories n laughing.

Commitment is a strenght 4 a father when he's not ashamed 2 introduce his son 2 his patners........'This is my son, he's in treatment cz of drugs n im proud of him'. Im sure his son will b in tears cz so many parents got mad, ashamed n expressed their anger by slapping his son.

Thats how far a commitment will take u.

As far as the ocean of life would b, as deep as it would b, i'll swim through it

As cold as it would b, as hot as it would be, i'll adapt through it

As strong the wind would b, so as soft as it would b, ill stand through it

But facing it together with the one u love, u know it wont b really that tough

Commitment will give u the strength 2 make u love sum1 unconditionally. Its tough but hey.....they will love u back the same way.

'I love you.....because i want to' Thats a powerful sentence, right there.

Some of us may have loved sumone cz of the shortly conditions. Cz he/she is kind, smart, even rich. Have u ever thought what will happen if he/she is mean 2 u, not as smart as before n broke. Will u still love them, then?

Thats y u need commitment. Dont love sumone cz of what/ how/who they r. From now on u should start loving sumone cz u want 2, so when sumday both of u have a hard time in relationship, ull say ' i will never forget the day when we fell in love'

Here we r.....May God gives us a ticket 2 find our soulmate, a ticket 2 arrive in sumone' heart.

~~~~~~~Inspired fr The test pack by Ninit Y~~~~~~~

As our two hearts has become one, is the most precious gift of love

Hhhmm Love

We think about it

Dream about it

Lose sleep worrying about it

When we dont have it we search for it

When we discover it we dont know what to do with it

We fear losing it

Its our source of pleasure and pain

We cant predict which it will be from one moment to the next

Its a short word

Easy to spell

Difficult to define

Impossible to live without.

Sometimes you have to just take a chance in love

You cant live your life amongst amound of "what if"

You have to follow your heart and hope for the best

Just remember that you dont choose love

Love chooses you

All you can really do is accept it

Feel its mystery when it comes into your life.

Thats why people call it fall in love

Cz you have no reasons to fall in love

You just fall like that

If you love someone cz you think that he/she is gorgeous

then its not love, its infatuation

If you love someone cz you think that you shouldnt leave him/her

then its not love, its compromise

If you love someone cz you think that you can not live without his/her touch

then its not love, its lust

If you love someone cz you think that youve been kissed by him/her

then its not love, its inferiority complex

If you love someone cz you think that you would hurt his/her feeling if you leave him/her

then its not love, its charity

If you love someone cz you think that you can share evrything with him/her

then its not love, its friendship

But if you feel the pain of the other person more than him/her even when he/she is stable

and you cry for him/her, thats love

If you get attracted to other people but stay with him/her without any regrets, thats love

If let him/her go knowing that he/she has to go but he/she doesnt want to, thats love

For me

To know who i love is.....

When being around that one

my heart beat faster with no reasons

When remembering that one

I smile with no reasons

When worrying bout that one

I will run in rush like theres no tomorrow

I cant really explain what i feel

But to love is..........

To have someone special

One who you can always depend to be there through the years

Sharing laughter and tears

As a partner, a lover, a friend

Whats love in ur point of view?

Tell me my true love is here underneath my christmas tree

"Jingle bell jingle bell jingle bell rock, dancing n prancing in jingle bell square in the frosty air. Why couldn't it be christmas every day?"

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Britney Spears on my ipod "My only wish this year"

......Hhhhmmmm.....Santa can u really hear me?

Oh yeah yeah...

Last night I took a walk in the snow,

Couples holdin hands, places to go,

Seems like everyone but me is in love

Santa can you hear me?

I signed my letter that I sealed with kiss,

I sent it off, it just said this:

"i know exactly what I want this year"

Santa can you hear me?

I want my baby, baby

I want someone to love me, someone to hold,

Maybe maybe,

He'll be all my own in a big red bow

Santa can you hear me?

I have been so good this year

And all I want is one thing,

Tell me my true love is here

He's all I want, just for me

Underneath my christmas tree

I'll be waiting here

Santa that's my only wish this year

Yeahh...

Christmas eve, I just can't sleep

Would I be wrong for takin a peek

'cause I heard that you're comin to town

Santa can you hear me?

I really hope that you're on your way

With something special for me in your sleigh

Oh please make my wish come true,

Santa can you hear me?

I want my baby, baby

I want someone to love me, someone to hold

Baby, baby, baby

We'll be all alone under the mistletoe

Santa can you hear me?

I have been so good this year,

All I want is one thing

Tell me my true love is here

He's all I want, just for me

Underneath my christmas tree

I'll be waiting here

Santa that's my only wish this year

I hope my letter reaches you in time, (oh yeah)

Bring me love I can call all mine (oh yeah)

'cause I have been so good this year, (oh oh)

Can't be alone under the mistletoe,

He's all I want in a big red bow.

Santa can you hear me?

I have been so good this year

And all I want is one thing

Tell me my true love is near

He's all I want, just for me

Underneath my christmas tree

I'll be waiting here,

Santa that's my only wish this year

Ahh ahh ahh

Oh santa, can you hear me...?

Oh santa, well he's all I want

Just for me, underneath my christmas tree

I'll be waiting here,

Santa that's my only wish this year

Santa that's my only wish this year.

¸.•♥•.¸¸.•♥• Merry Christmas, thinking of u @ christmas time, may ur days be merry n ur heart be light •♥•.¸¸.•♥•.¸

We can never turn back the pages of time, though we may wish to relive a happy moment or say goodbye just one last time

Twice a day ......

I tell myself to forget you

Thrice a day ......

I find myself remembering you

Four times a day ......

I remind myself to erase you from my mind

Five times a day .....

I can not stop myself from writing bout you

A hundred times a day ......

I ask myself to hate you

A thousand times a day ......

I find myself uncontrollably forgiving you

Each time every day ......

My heart is torn into shreds

Ten thousand times a day ......

I keep telling myself to love you

This love ......

Was it meant to be a mistake from the start

Maybe we should both take a step back

Our stubbornness only brings misery

The happiness that can not be reached

Translated fr the OST of Zhong Wu Yan ~ Taiwanese Drama

If a picture paints a thousand words, then why cant i paint u?

Ting ting..........

YOU'VE GOT MAIL!!!!

Day 1..............

Hey Tara. Thanx 4 replying my email so soon.

Ur welcome. Thanx 4 writing 2 me 2.

Call me Karel. Im Dutch. Im working on my master degree. How bout u?

Im just Tara. Im Indonesian. Im struggling with my baccalaureate.

:) :) :) Hey Just Tara .....lol

Thats rite ^_^

Day 2................

Favorite song?

Nope. U?

If. Bread.

Me2

Huh? U said u dont have fav song?!

Hahaha. i just remember it

:) :) :)

Y?

The song?

Yup

It looks like they wrote it 4 me

Day 3................

Karel?

Yea?

How old r u?

25. Single :) :) :) U?

19. Single

Boyfriend?

NO

Really? In ur country?

Yup. No boyfriend. U?

Nope

Oh really?

Yeah. Im straight. No boyfriend hahaha

No serious girlfriends

:'(

Day 4............

Ill tell u a secret though. Theres a girl. I think i like her.

U think?

Yeah :) :) :) Cz i dont know her

How come?

I often see her in the campus garden but ive never talked 2 her

Theres sumthin mysterious bout her that made me interested.

U r wierd!

Hahaha. Im surprised 2, usually im not like this.

Theres always a first time

Day 5.............

Sometimes she just sat there n did nothing. She looked as if she was bout 2 cry.

Didnt she look @ u?

Nahh. I always sit behind the trees. She doesnt seem 2 notice evry1 around her.

Is she pretty?

Shes attractive.

Arent u going 2 talk 2 her? Say hey?

Im afraid she would disappear. She seems so fragile.

Day 6..............

I tried 2 find sum1 @ the campus garden

ive been looking 4 her but shes not there anymore. I quite miss her.

What will u say 2 her if u get a chance 2 talk 2 her

ill ask her 2 b my girlfriend

U barely know her

i know shes my soulmate

Day 7..............

I saw her! I saw her!

Who? Ur girl? Where?

In the garden, just now. Cant talk 2 u now. Ill call u.

Congrats!!!

"Hey im Karel........"

my lips quivered, "Tara"

oh my gosh I've already talked with my mysterious girl. I've shared my feelings with my girl

I bowed. I saw the image cuts across in my eyes. I sat here like having my own world filled with my own sorrow. I struggled 2 breathe the air as much as i can. I tried 2 gather my strength. I tried to forget all the painful memories of romance.

How can i not feel it?

" ive loved u ever since i saw u. Can u imagine how i feel when i found u here?"

I smiled.

Few months after that.........

"Let me make u happy. Let me love u."

He pulled me closer n embraced me. I can feel my tears. Tears of happiness. Now i believe that sumtimes best things happen when not expected.

Inspired by the novel " 2 tokyo 2 love by Mariskova"

Fly me up to where you are beyond the distant star

Once upon a time in the land of nowhere, there were 7 princesses who always talking bout the romantic moments in their life'. I love 2 hear the story cz i like the feeling when i try 2 imagine their romantic moments........

The first princess Riri

My perfect moment is when i was trapped in sadness, he carried me on his back. I can feel his back was so comfortable, guarded me with tenderness .

The second princess Bebe

When i got caught cz of huge mistakes, he stood up 4 me, tried 2 protect me no matter if the bad things might happen 2 him cz of me.

The third princess Yaya

He screamed out loud........" I will always care bout u n i will always b there 4 u no matter what happens between us sumday"

The fourth princess Sisi

When people talked all the bad things bout me, He pulled me closer n held me tight. He said " If u say NO then i believe u so"

The fifth princess Gogo

I had chocolate ice cream . He wanted 2 taste it, he kissed me softly n said " Hmmm, now i know the chocolate tastes so great"

The sixth princess Fefe

He wrote so many love poems 4 me, expressing how much he loves me. U r the music in my life, u r the sun that brightens my day. One of his poems......

T he seventh princess Mimi

Just a simple thing, as long as he'll always b here with me n won't give me a chance 2 miss him. He already completed my days.

Suddenly they stared @ me .......... whats ur romantic moment my dear?

I looked @ the horizon n murmured.......

" If he can bravely tell other people that i am his , the one that he loves , the one that melts his heart......like he always said"

My friends, if uve been tagged on this notes, it means that u have 2 tell us bout ur romantic moments. Let us share all the happiness of the best moment that we have been through in our life.........

Sunrise, sunset, changes right before my eyes, but ur vision stays forever in my heart

I walked along the path, trying 2 remember the meaning of u. The wind blew n i heard the songs spinning in my head. The song which is not just beautiful cz had been sung by a famous singer, but cz the lyrics came from the heart n they can represent u in anyway.

Fist time meeting u............................

I lost myself in fantasies of u n me together, i dont know y but dreaming's all i do,.....upside down bouncing off the ceiling,inside out stranger 2 this feeling, got no clue what i should do.............

First time knowing u............................

Hey hey you you! I dont like ur girlfriend. No way no way! I think u need a new one. Hey hey you you! I could b ur girlfriend....:P

Few months after knowing u.................

Anyone whos seen us, knows whats going on between us, it doesnt take a genius 2 read between the lines n its not just wishful thinking or only me whos dreaming.....I know what these r symptoms of, we could b in love.....

When u said I Love You.......................

Take me 2 ur heart, take me 2 ur soul, give me ur hand before im old, show me what love is, i havent got a clue, show me that wonders can b true.....

When we were in love..........................

Its amazing how u can speak right 2 my heart,.....The smile on ur face let me know that u need me, theres a truth in ur eyes saying ull never leave me. The touch of ur hand says ull catch me wherever i fall.....

Take my hand, take a breath, pull me close n take one step. Keep ur eyes locked on mine n let the music b ur guide.....Its like catching lightning the chances of finding sum1 like u. Its one in the million, the chances of feeling the way we do n with evry step together, we just keep on getting better....

Upside down of our relationship...............

How can i not love u? what do i tell my heart? when do i not want u here in my arms? How does one walk away fr all of the memories? How do i not miss u when u r gone?

Breaking up time................................

I can c the first leaves falling. Its all so yellow n nice. Its so very cold outside like the way im feeling inside. Im a big big girl in a big big world. Its not a big big thing if u leave me but i do do feel that i do do will miss u much.....

Days after breaking up..........................

I close my eyes, dream away.....It must have been love but its over now. It must have been good but i lost it somehow fr the moment we touched till the time had run out.....

Between fear n hope............................

If u could c that im the one who understand u. Been here all along so why cant u c me, u belong with me, u belong with me.....All this time how could u not know baby, u belong with me.....

Sigh!!!..............................................

"Thank 2 A*Teens, Avril Lavigne, Lea Salonga, MLTR, Ronan Keating, HSM3, Joy Enriques, Emilia, Roxette, Taylor Swift.....All ur songs r lovely."

I wont struggle so much 4 i believe best things happen when not expected

Friends, let I whispered to you...the story of a beautiful love

who have touched my heart warms by bringing thousands of taste for the soul

But destiny has a secret...that can not be understood with certainty

love that was stripped from me take all hopes and incised wounds to the lonely soul

I thought i would never have a love again...with the beauty that can make me drift

but fate does have a secret which cant be fully understood

So let's remind you again...bout an old adage that once said

that loving someone does not have to always coupled with having his body

and now i understand...I have even had a new true love

but I know love that i've ever had before will always be a part of memories

and this is my story about the beauty of love

the flickering will live in my heart forever

Rerum cognoscere causas < To learn the causes of things > Fr. Bryan Dyson's speech

Can u imagine that life is like a juggler with 5 balls in the air? U can name that balls as wealth, family, health, friends n spirit. U have to balance them all so they wont fall. But what bout if u have 2 lose one of them?

Let the wealth go, cz wealth is the rubber ball even if u drop it, it will bounce again, while the other 4 balls r glass balls, If u drop them, it will b fatal.

Sumtimes we try so hard 2 keep our wealth n sacrifice our family, health, friends n spirit just 2 save the rubber ball.

Only 4 wealth, some ppl ignore their family, work so hard without thinking of their own health.

Only 4 wealth, some ppl distroy their friendship.

Only 4 wealth, some ppl wanna make it like God.........

But losing wealth, ppl still can find a way 2 get it back again........if u break the glass balls, where can u find them again? Can u buy love fr ur family? Can u buy friendship? Can u enjoy ur life if u r sick?

Its beautiful when God let love grow in our heart

Love is..............

Love is kind

Love is patient

Love is never jealous

Love is never boastful

Love is never proud

Love is never rude

Love isnt selfish

Love isnt quick tempered

Love doesnt keep a record

of wrong that other do

Love rejoices in the truth,

but not in evil

Love is always loyal

Love is always hopeful

Love is always trusting

Love is never fails

(1 Corinthians 13 : 4 - 8)

Our heart tells us only the simple truth

Today i saw a very good looking guy. Ive never been interested in any guys before, but y he can atrract me so deeply?

When i sent flowers that he ordered, i just knew that hes a bro of Lena, my best friend in college. Theres a hope in my heart , yeah maybe, i can see him more often.

But when i saw his fiancee, shes so beautiful. I felt hopeless. I swore, i wont think bout him again.

Tonight i couldnt sleep. I was surprised when my cell rang..........

Joy got robbed n now hes in hospital.

I rushed 2 hospital n met Eva there. Oh gosh, in a time like this.....the only thing she cared bout was her jewelry n i was worried bout Joy's life.

Eva fought with the doctor cz she refused 2 donate her blood. Joy needed transfusion. i was glad when i knew that my blood type was the same as Joy's.

I trembled when i saw blood, but i tried 2 hold on.

I missed him, but i didnt dare 2 visit him in hospital. i didnt want his family 2 overly thank me. Eventhough i couldnt c him but im happy cz my blood was in his whole body now.

Suddenly Eva came 2 my house. She gave me a cheque. I refused her offer. I donated my blood not cz of money but cz i love him.

I really wanted 2 tell Joy that i didnt accept the cheque, but i didnt want 2 ruin his relationship with Eva.

Eva went 2 Japan for 2 weeks. Joy dated me 2 thank me cz i helped him once. I was so happy.

But when Eva was back, she got angry n accused me 4 trying 2 steal her bf. Huft........

Lately Lena kinda stayed away fr me. I found out that Joy was in hospital again. I felt like i wanted 2 fly , wanted 2 b by his side rite away.

The doctor said..... he couldnt walk anymore. He didnt like when i came 2 visit him, he was worried that Eva probably might get mad again. I kept coming 2 visit him n tried 2 avoid Eva as i could.

Today i was really upset.Eva came 2 hospital with her new fiance n returned Joy's engaged ring. I couldnt stand 2 c how sad he was @ that time.

Joy's mom asked me if i wanted 2 b her son's fiancee....with no doubt, i said yes.

We discussed with the doctor bout Joy's legs. Physically he was not sick, so i agreed 2 use Eva's engagement invitation 2 make Joy walking again. We did it.....he walks.

Since he can walk again, Joy couldnt stop saying Eva's name. It hurt badly. I didnt show up in hospital again.

Weird.....i saw Joy's car in front of my college. Without any words, he put our engagement ring in my sweet finger.

Today we were married.

hes been a great husband. Always gets home on time, but hes never touched me. I just knew, he didnt want 2 sleep with sum1 that he doesnt love.

Thats fine with me. I just hope .....with all my love n devotion.....he will love me sumday

One nite, Joy got home late......drunk!!!! After all this time, i still heard he was saying Eva's name. Gosh, i realized now that love cant b forced. Theres nothing left now.

Joy's dad asked bout grandchild. How can i explain 2 him that we've never made love, not even once. Joy's mom took me 2 the doctor 2 check up bout my uterus. What should i do? im still a virgin.

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Joy called his doctor. he almost cried when the doctor said....."Amanda has helped u twice, i thought her devotion n her probity already made God touched. U should love her with all ur heart" 

The languages of love

Kiss on the lips = I love you
Kiss on the ear = You are special
Kiss on the nose = Laughter
Kiss on the cheek = Friendship
Kiss on the forehead = I comfort you
Kiss on the neck = I want you
Kiss on the shoulder = You are wonderful
Kiss anywhere else = Be careful.....:P

Playing around with hair = Cant live without you
Holding hands = Happiness
Arms around waist = You are mine / I need you
A hug = I care
Nibble on ear = Start warming.....:P

Smiling @ each other = I like you
Lifting up eyebrows / wink = Flirtation
Looking around = Hiding true feelings
Tender kiss on the side of your lips = You are mine
Wetting your lips = Waiting for a kiss
Tear drop = I'm losing you
Crying = I lost you



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When we two parted in silence n tears

Mia cara, bellisima Lanavera,......My dear, beautiful Lanavera

They said that it is love when all u want is that person 2 b happy, even if u r not part of their happiness. So i guess its truly love that ive been feeling 4 u 4 all i want is 2 c u happy.

I cant give u the kind of love that uve been searching all these times. U deserve sum1 who could b thera 4 u in those coming years n make evry lil details of ur dream comes true. Sum1 who could grow old together with u, laugh with u n wipe ur tears away through good n bad times.

N 4 sum reasons i knew i could never b that person 4 u, Lana. Ur happiness is my only consideration n thats the real reason y i have 2 let u go. Cerca di capire, plz try 2 understand that.....

Just remember that i will always love u 'Ti amo, di un amore che non morira', n plz promise me 1 thing, promise me that ull find ur own true love no matter what happen. Be happy with him, Lana. Be happy 4 me

Arrivederci amore mio.....Goodbye my love

Son tuo sempre.....Im urs always

Fabian

Only Love < Dea's Note in Facebook On Love, Author Ifa Avianty>

Six months after he told me that he has cancer. N evrytime i wake up, the first thing im gonna do is 2 check if hes still alive by my side, then ill praise the Lord while hugging him. Idk how long i can do it again.Giving hug 2 the 1 that i love. Talking 2 him before i go 2 sleep, just like in the movie "when harry met sally", "i want u 2 b the last 1 that i talk 2 before goin 2 bed"

I try 2 enjoy evry moment that i have.....
In my heart, i still believe he can b cured. But im not that tough. I cant imagine my life without him, but then i realized i cant b like this.....evrytime i look @ the face of our foster kids, they still need me as a mom.
Then i saw my love whos keep trying 2 b strong 2.

Never thought, this is gonna b our fate.......
We used 2 b enemies on fb, debating bout books n movies.Then we became employee n the boss who always argue about anythin. God's plans r extraordinary n beautiful. We found such a wonderful babies, twins in the box. I fell in love with them in a second. Then u asked me 2 b their mom......yayyy !!! i got married with the most wanted bachelor in town.

Marriage is not only bout happiness but also learning 2 accept ur love the way he is.....even how bad it is. He was a playboy before n have a baby girl fr another woman. its hurt badly, but the baby is innocent, the adults who made a sin.......i take care the baby 2 as my own child......3 of them now. i feel very grateful.

Im gonna have my own baby.....really cant wait......
OMG, hes a cute baby boy, but i cant hold him, cant warm him.....hes sick, hes dying.I wanna cry out loud begging 4 his mercy so he will save my baby, my own flash. But God has His own plan 4 us......the biggest mystery that weve never understood.I should let him go in peace......I passed out.

Dont feel pity 4 me. U know, learning that ull lose ur love one is always sumthin that u cant easily cope with. When i lost my baby n now my love............
he puked.....n all blood evry where. I guessed its the time. hes in comma then never woke up again. I buried myseld in sadness.......

5 yrs passed.....then i read a letter fr my love. He wanted me 2 find sum1.....the one who can grow old with me. Maybe sumday ......