Now........
Here I'm. I looked around the hall. What amazing and pretty hall indeed. Over there, on the stage, I can see them. Beautiful bride and groom. I walked to the stage, smiled on my face.
"Congratulation!!" I said, but my voice cracked. I Looked straight in to his eyes, trying to tell him that I'm alright. I kissed my sister, felt happy for her. She finally can be together with the one that she loves so much.
I'm on the floor, counting one minute more
No one to break the silence
Staring in to the night
All alone, but that's alright
It's the feeling, deep inside, I don't like
This is where our journey ends
You're breaking my heart again.....
( Breaking my heart - MLTR )
Two days ago......
"You should come home, come to my wedding," His first message on my cell this morning.
"Give me a strength to get through this," His another message.
I looked out the window. It was raining out there. I opened the window. I felt the pouring rain on my hands. It has been two years, I haven't gone back home. Gosh, it was just like yesterday......
It's so very cold outside, like the way I'm feeling inside
I'm a big big girl, in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
But I do do feel, that I do do will
Miss you much
I have your arms around me, warm like fire
But when i open my eyes, You're gone.....
( Big big world - Emilia )
Two years ago......
I went to my dad's office. During my school holiday, daddy let me help him in marketing. I was so happy because i can learn something new here.
"Keanu, here is Tiara, my youngest daughter. She wanna learn about marketing here for her school assignment," Daddy introduced me with his marketing manager.
First impression, He's cute like my teddy bear at home, hahaha
He's such a charming teacher. He taught me much about marketing. I love the way he treated me, like an angel standing next to me. I hardly believed it, you opened up my heart.
Everyone can see, there's a change in me
They all say I'm not the same kid I used to be
Don't go out and play, I just dream all day
They don't know what's wrong with me
And I'm to shy to say
It's my first love
What I'm dreaming of when i go to bed
When I lay my head upon my pillow
Don't know what to do.....
( First love - Nikka Costa )
Day after day, time passed away and I just can't get you off my mind. Till one day, i found a piece of paper between my marketing books. It said, "At the moment, she took my heart away. I let it go with her, but I keep waiting. Until she finds this and answer all my dreams someday ( To my one, T)"
" Oh My Goodness!!!"...........
"Am I answering your dream, Tiara?" Suddenly he was standing in front of me
""Huh? What?" I was so nervous
"Will you be my one?"
And I was freezing then melting like ice cream.........
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Dinner in my house with Keanu and my family. Daddy said he wanted my sister to get married with Keanu, another freezing moment in my life. Nobody knows about me and Keanu. When people said there's no border in love, but actually there is. Our large different in age, made us keep our relationship in silence, waiting the right time to make other people can accept us. Daddy's words sounded like an undeniable statement.
I just knew that Keanu is a smart n talented employee in my dad's company. He started his career from low level there, but my dad paid for his school till he can finish his master degree abroad.
"Tiara, I.........." I put my finger on his lips.....
"Sssshhh!! I know what are you gonna say." I embraced him tight.
"I love you," He whispered
I Moved to another and continue my study there, because I know by staying away from him, I can give him and my sister a chance to be close to each other. That's the last thing that i can do for him and my sister, because they are the ones that I love. If my leaving can give happiness to them then I'll do it.
Tomorrow morning I have to leave
But wherever I may be
Best believe I'm thinking of you
I can't believe how much I love you
All we have is here tonight
We don't want to waste this time
Give me something to remember
Baby put your lips on mine
Just close your eyes and you'll be here with me
Just look to your heart and that's where I'll be.....
( Close your eyes - Westlife )
Now........
Late at night. The wedding was over an hour ago. Here I am, sitting near the pool, staring at stars in the sky. I can't sleep at all.
"Tiara???" I remember his voice.
"Hhhmmm, why are you here? Where's my sister?"
"She fell asleep, too tired, I guess.......How's your life?"
"I'm okay. I think, I should go inside......" He held my hand, still as warm as two years ago.
"I.......Never mind........Goodnight Tiara........" He sighed. I smiled at him.
Early in the morning i went to the airport, I sent a message on his cell.
I am very happy now and I want you to keep your promise to be the happiest man in the world
In his room Keanu read the message......."The happiest man ???......I'm still trying Tiara......" He grinned.
I gave my best to you
Nothing for me to do but have one last cry
One last cry before I leave it all behind
I gotta put you out of my mind
This time stop living lie
I guess I'm down to my last cry
I know I gotta be strong
Cause round me life goes on and on
I gotta dry my eyes right after I have my one last cry
( One last cry - Brian Mcknight)
Saying goodbye isn't the hard part, it's what we leave behind that's tough. They make you realize what you've had, what you've lost, and what you've taken for granted.
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