Six months after he told me that he has cancer. N evrytime i wake up, the first thing im gonna do is 2 check if hes still alive by my side, then ill praise the Lord while hugging him. Idk how long i can do it again.Giving hug 2 the 1 that i love. Talking 2 him before i go 2 sleep, just like in the movie "when harry met sally", "i want u 2 b the last 1 that i talk 2 before goin 2 bed"
I try 2 enjoy evry moment that i have.....
In my heart, i still believe he can b cured. But im not that tough. I cant imagine my life without him, but then i realized i cant b like this.....evrytime i look @ the face of our foster kids, they still need me as a mom.
Then i saw my love whos keep trying 2 b strong 2.
Never thought, this is gonna b our fate.......
We used 2 b enemies on fb, debating bout books n movies.Then we became employee n the boss who always argue about anythin. God's plans r extraordinary n beautiful. We found such a wonderful babies, twins in the box. I fell in love with them in a second. Then u asked me 2 b their mom......yayyy !!! i got married with the most wanted bachelor in town.
Marriage is not only bout happiness but also learning 2 accept ur love the way he is.....even how bad it is. He was a playboy before n have a baby girl fr another woman. its hurt badly, but the baby is innocent, the adults who made a sin.......i take care the baby 2 as my own child......3 of them now. i feel very grateful.
Im gonna have my own baby.....really cant wait......
OMG, hes a cute baby boy, but i cant hold him, cant warm him.....hes sick, hes dying.I wanna cry out loud begging 4 his mercy so he will save my baby, my own flash. But God has His own plan 4 us......the biggest mystery that weve never understood.I should let him go in peace......I passed out.
Dont feel pity 4 me. U know, learning that ull lose ur love one is always sumthin that u cant easily cope with. When i lost my baby n now my love............
he puked.....n all blood evry where. I guessed its the time. hes in comma then never woke up again. I buried myseld in sadness.......
5 yrs passed.....then i read a letter fr my love. He wanted me 2 find sum1.....the one who can grow old with me. Maybe sumday ......
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