Me.....Tried to clear my path for him and her
I'm tired hiding.I felt weary for being silent all the time. I just want to express what is hidden inside my heart. I'm not a girl for being fun. I'm not a stone, I do have a heart n feelings. I just don't know where I should start it.
He came into my life when I' have never thought what love is. From him, I learnt how to love and felt to be loved.
"Do you love him?" asked Mia.
With no doubt, I nodded, "Since the first time I met him."
"I just felt so foolish cause I have never realized that he loves another girl too!"
MIa said, " A guy is a human too, he can be confused too. Why don't you give him a chance to think and to choose?"
"He already decided to be with her, I gotta face the fact. I can't do anything anymore. Maybe I should let my story to be my past......"
Are you really ready to let it go?
"Adel???" Mia tapped me.
I turned my face, "Hhhmmm, just.....why can't he let me go when he already be with her?"
"Well, sometimes we should help a guy to decide something for him."
"I just can't be like this!"
I felt my heart hurt so badly. He's not meant to be with you, God will let you meet with someone who fits you someday,.....I tried to console myself.
Him.....And I thought the angel is you
God please show me the way.....
I know that soon or later I should decide who I wanna be with .....Adel or her?
I texted Adel this morning, asked to meet her and thank God, she agreed.
One thing that made me fell in love with Adel.....She's tough, She knows what she wants.
"You must be very disappointed with me."
"Yeah, when the first time I heard about you and her. But it's the risk of relationship, right?"
"Is it hard for you, Del?" What a stupid question.
"Maybe this is the best thing for all of us........"
"I'm so sorry, Del......"
"It's no need to apologize. I'll be alright. Really. Maybe we only fit to be brother and sister." She smiled.
But I still feel that love for her........
"You didn't choose the wrong girl. You got my blessed. You should be happy with her....."
Oh gosh!!!Why should I hurt a girl as angel as her. Suddenly I pulled her hand and embraced her. For a moment we stared at each other.
"You gotta promise me, you'll only love me as your sister?"
"I promise you......"
Can I? There's a doubt in my heart......
I can be tough
I can be strong
But with you, It's not like that at all
And I remember all those crazy thing you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
(Avril Lavigne)
If you love two people at the same time, choose the second one. Because if you truly loved the first one, you wouldn’t love another one ~ The Notebook on Twitter
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