I walked along the beach. I could see my footprints had been swept away by waves. Maybe, that's what I should do, let your shadow slowly fade away fr my heart. I took a deep breath. I kept telling myself it's the right thing to do.
I was supposed to meet Jasmine here. I looked around and I could see someone smiled at me near the coconut tree. I walked toward her, tried to smile to her.
"Sunny!! Hey......" She kissed my cheeks.
"Jasmine....." I kissed her back. "Thanx for coming. I need to talk to you....."
"What's wrong? You look weird....."
"I've decided to give up," I said in trembling voice.
"Sunny........??? But why???"
"It's not cause of you but it's about me. I'm really weary....." I looked the other way, not daring to look at her.
"You can't give up just like that. You have promised me that we'll compete fairy until he decides who he really loves between us."
"Do you really want to wait that day will come? Aren't you afraid, Jasmine?"
"I am afraid. I am....."
"You are my best friend and he's the one I love. I don't wanna make it difficult for three of us again.....That's why I should give up"
I remembered three months ago, when Jasmine told me something about Farrel.....
"Sunny....., I've fallen for Farrel....." Jasmine looked at me with guilty feeling.
"I know.....I realized it before u told me. The way you look at him, everything that you do for him, showing how much u love him. I just refused to face it."
"Why aren't you mad at me for betraying my best friend?"
"I don't blame you cause we never know who we will fall in love with....."
And now......
I took a deep breath again, "Only one of us can be with Farrel.....And that person is not me. It is you......"
"Why did you say that? I can see Farrel likes you too He looks so comfy when he's with you."
"Maybe it's true he likes me, but it's only between friends cause he knows me for long time."
"Sunny......."
"I really don't blame you. Love is indeed selfish and I know you can make him happy."
"I'm so sorry......" She burst into tears.
"That's all I wanna say. Let's go home now, almost twilight. I'll take this way and you'll take that way. No turning back.No tears between us."
"Sunny......" Jasmine embraced me tight.
I was running along the beach, covering my mouth with my hand, hoping no one would hear my cries.I wish to applaud my courage for saying all those words to Jasmine. But I know very well, I'm not ready to face this decision, so I only can run, as far as possible.....
I sighed........
Don't go, you know you will break my heart
She won't love you like I will
I'm the one who'll stay when she walks away
And you know I'll be standing here still
I'll be waiting for you here inside my heart
I'm the one who wants to love you more
(Celine Dion)
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