"We have come to believe and to know that you are the Holy One of God." (John 6:69)

My Lord, make me to be the bearer of ur peace

If there is hatred

make me to be the bearer of love

if there is humiliation

make me to be the bearer of forgiveness

if there is disputation

make me to be the bearer of harmony

if there is indecision

make me to be the bearer of certainty

if there is misguided

make me to be the bearer of truth

if there is anxiety

make me to be the bearer of hope

if there is sadness

make me to be the bearer of joy

if there is darkness

make me to be the bearer of light

My Lord,do not let go my hands

embrace me in your love

guide me with ur will

I wanna learn to understand more than to be understood

to console more than to be consoled

to love more than to be loved

cause by giving... I will be received

by forgiving... I will be forgiven

by giving affection... I will be loved

"You hear what's deep inside, You're the one who won my heart"

Me.....

Today I decided to leave him. I don't know where. Meanwhile it was raining outside, rain was getting heavy. I was having a party with rain and tears. Deep down in my heart I still have hope, he might come after me, asking me not to leave. But hope was just hope. Still I can hear what he said....."I'm trying but I still can't love you," My love is only a one side love, no matter how long we have been together.

Him.....

Its true that I felt relieved when finally I can be honest with her. Feelings can't be forced, right?

But only a few minutes after she left. I realized there's something empty inside my heart. Her, she is my girl, the one tough girl that I know. she is as good as an angel, but I still can't love her. I kept comparing her with other girls. She's not pretty enough. She's not girlie enough. She's not hot enough. But look at her, she has no chance defending herself. She showed no emotions in her face, I ignored her when sometimes I saw pain in her eyes.

Days have passed, I feel empty inside. No matter what, we used to be together.

Me.....

For me, he is my prince charming. I care about him a lot but what did i get? Can't he learn a little bit to love me? I'm still an ordinary human being. I'm not an angel. I feel disappointed, sad, empty and mad because I was being ignored. God, if I can ask You to take away my feelings so I don't have to feel this painfully.....

Him.....

Tonight for the first time I feel I really missed her. I want her to be here by my side. How could I let her go? I missed her laugh when I told her some jokes. I missed her asking me....how's work, hun?, Tired, hun?, I miss you, hun., I love you, hun. I missed when she was mad at me because of how messed up I am.

I opened her blog and the first line that she wrote is "The one i gave my heart to". All her stories about me. Gosh, I wanna curse myself a million times for being bad to her.

Where are you? .....Don't you wanna come home? Do I still have a second chance?

Me.....

He didn't try to find me, while I missed him desperately here. I'm worried about him.

Are you healthy, my love? Have you had your meal, hun? Were you tired at work, hun? And .....don't you remember me?

I still hope one day when I open the door, I'll find you there, pulling me closer and embracing me. But the rain won't stop yet. Do I still have a chance to see a rainbow out there?

Him.....

"Because you hold me up so high, give yourself with no condition. Because you guide me when i'm stumbling in the dark. You hear what's deep inside, when i need you there to listen, you're the one who won my heart"

You never give up reaching for me, right?????

Sometimes in life, we ask God to give us what we want, but He knows exactly what we need. We often ask Him to find someone that fit us in anyway, but somehow He lets us meet certain people, letting us be together, there's must be a reason for that. Maybe He wants us to learn how to love sincerely with no conditions.

*To combine a true story and fiction is hard indeed, but I did it eventually*

" Remember me. Oh, remember me, for memory may fade but they never die."

I am only in love with you

I love you wholeheartedly

I follow you around

Like a shadow everyday

I laugh and cry for you

Just how much more do I have to gaze you alone

This love comes like the wind

This love makes me beg for you

If i keep waiting for you

Wil you love me?

I wanna come closer

Just one step closer

But you take two steps back

I wanna be a girl

Who stands by you

I wonder....

I learned how to smile

Even my heart full of tears

Cause I still love you the same way

I am just another fool

I wanna win your love

Everyday in my heart

I wanna scream out loud

Cause the girl is not me

I know I am a fool

Will you embrace me before you go?

Just once.....

For the last time

Prank.....Just for fun.....

Little boy : " Dad, how was I born?".......:-/

Dad : Well son, your mom and I got together at yahoo.......@-)

We set up a date via E mail and met in cyber cafe........;)

Your mom agreed to download data from my PEN DRIVE......:*

so I put it in your mom's USB PORT......:-bd

And just when i was about to transfer......:-o

we realized that none of us had installed an ANTIVIRUS or FIREWALL......:(

It was too late to hit 'Cancel'.......:-ss

And nine nonths later a 'Pop up' window appeared, saying.......:-/

"You've got 'MALE''......:))

LOL...... =)) what a phenomenal relationship in the virtual world

"Distance never separates two hearts that really care, for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there"

I close my eyes. Its raining out there.....RAIN!!! All the time rain still remain rhythmic.

If you try to listen the sound of rain with your heart and try to smell it.....What is captured by your heart?

Rain is always beautiful for me.....because rain season united me with my loved ones

What I feel sometimes is almost the same as when im enjoying the rain. When you are not here.....i feel restless, just like when i see the pouring rain. I feel scared, just like when i hear the lightning thunder.

I missed him alot. Where are you? What are you doing? Are you tired? Have u had ur meal?

God..... Longing is wrapping my heart.

Its still raining outside.....

I can see the painting of our every moment in every rhytthm of the pouring rain. In silent im holding my knees and faintly i can hear a song fr radio... and AGAIN!!! it reminds me of you.....

i know you are bored

i know you are weary

i know you cant stand it anymore

its all my fault

its all cz of me

im afraid

you are gone

you'll disappear

you are sick

i just wanna you be here

be by my side

forever

I wish you can say.....

dont be sad

i'll be faithful

dont be afraid

i wont be gone

i want to be here with you

inspired fr Vierra's song

“So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. " Luke 11:9

Life is like the clock that always runs and will stop in time that we do not know when. Right now i feel like the clock stopped. I cant breathe. I cant see the light. All dark like theres no way out.

O God..... among of my despair, i prostrate to you.....

Our Father, you know whats the best for me

but why am I still complaining?

though I wanted the sun shines brightly

but You know there must be a pouring rain

I loved the laughter and jokes

low noise joy

but my heart will freeze and be stiff

if not drenched with tears

Our Father, You often test me

suffering and distress. You let it happen

not a trial but the exam that You give

for I know today and tomorrow

Trees will grow stronger

when there will stand the wind and storm

like a sharp chisel eye

produce beautiful and elegant carvings of marbles

Our Father, You never hurt me for no reason

You never wasted my pains

any loss that you're allowed to make happen

you replace it with surely abundant blessings

When I count the blessings that I received

that You devote ceaseless

I see no reason to be sad

and there was no time to complain

Our Father, You always love your children

for You all things are common

You never send joy

when my soul needs pain

Every time I have a heavy burden

when everything is not running correctly

and there, I saw God works in my life

make me stronger and vibrant

Only one thing that I beg from You, O Father

accompany me in this life

show me the way that I should go through

so I can pursue a path

the path of truth to eternity

Amen!!!

Peter Brutsch

"Forever is not a word...rather a place where two lovers go when true love takes them there."

If i had a little more time

I hope to give you the entire world

I can not change

All that i was missed before

My longings could only spiral like in a dream

If i had a little more time

I want to realize all your wishes

Too many dreams

Too many promises

Awaiting every night

Realizing gradually

Let all the sorrows end with each sunset

Let me be by your side

Completing every day of your life

Even if you are in the edge of the sky

Two hearts are true like a kite joined by one string

Let all happiness meander before sunrise

Let me see your smile when you are in your happiest moment

Though you are on the surface of the earth

Our love must be till forever more

Inspired fr Starlit - the taiwanese serial

When u say u love me, the world stops 4 a moment, the stars stop shining, the moon stops glowing, the earth stops breathing

People said theres only a thin line between hate n love. Dont hate sumone 2 much cz u might b in love with that one. The more u hate sum1 n the more u think bout that one.........

Dear diary.........

I met him @ the hotel X, he held a fans conference.....Who doesnt adore him nowadays? I tried 2 get closer 2 c him but im 2 small to get through the hordes of people standing. Suddenly ppl rushed n chased him cz he was leaving the hotel. People kept pushing each other, i fell down near his feet......he didnt have 2 take a look lil bit. What an arrogant actor!!! I hate him since that day

Dear diary........

OMG! OMG! Cant believe it, i got a chance 2 b a host in tv program 4 a week with my idol in Maluku. But when i saw his name, i was not 2 eager 2 do it......Its him again. Its true that i requested 2 b with him in that show but that before i knew how arrogant he is.

Dear diary.......

First day with him.........Cant deny how adorable he is. But i hate him more, when he walked in to rest room, he hit me. He said sorry with flat face. What the hell.

Dear diary........

Second day with him, its so tiring cz i had 2 pretend smiling n b friendly with him during the show. He said, u seem hating me so much n i dont know y u do that, if u dont like doing the show with me, other girls will love 2 take ur place. A girl shouldnt b so mean if not.....u wont have a boyfriend sumday!!!......Grrrrrrrrrr.

Dear diary........

Third day with him.......He said, come with me!!! He held my hand n dragged me 2 the beach. Oh my gosh, what a beauty, SUNSET. Always love it. I looked @ him, said thank u through my eyes. He smiled n my heart started 2 beat faster. Oh NO!!!!!

Dear diary.......

Fourth day with him......He knocked @ my door. Its 5 in the morning. He said, Hurry up n dragged me 2 the beach

again. He surprised me one more time. SUNRISE. I was really grateful cz i can c such a beauty fr God. He said, i enjoy spending time with u. I was blushing indeed.

Dear diary........

Fifth day with him, just yesterday i still hated him so much n now i cant stop thinking bout him. I cant b in love with him?????? Im so confused n frustrated. Sumone out there please help me, i got no clues @ all. Being around him made me nervous 2 death. Huft.

Dear diary........

Sixth day with him, i bought some souvenirs 4 all crews in this show cz tomorrow is our last day in Maluku. I had a special one 4 him, just bout knocking his door when i heard 2 people was talking quite hard.........

"I asked u 2 b nice with her not spending ur day with sunset n sunrise with her. What will ur fans think bout u if they know u have a gf!!!!!!"........his manager.

"I just want her 2 treat me friendly. U know i cant b in love with such ordinary girl like her....I just pretend 2 b nice so she wont c me as her enemy during this show......." thats his voice.

I ran into my room with tears. I should know that he's an actor, pretending is what he uses 2 do. Im the foolish one.

Dear diary........

Last day with him. @ the airport, looked @ our pics on my cell. Blah. I hate him just like the first day i saw him. He said, did i do sumthing wrong? Just stay away fr me, will u???? I closed my eyes, tried not 2 cry.

Dear diary........

Few days before valentine day. A month after the show, i saw him on tv. I missed him indeed.

"Do u have a gf ?" ........the host

"Not right now, but i have sumone that i lke"..........

My heart hurt.........

Dear diary........

Valentine day @ cafe with girls in my gang. OMG, hes the guest star!!!! I knew girls setting me up tonite.

"Whats the biggest surprise tonite?".........the host.

"Hhmm, I know u r here. Please forgive me. I dont mean 2 hurt u. What i feel 4 u, its not an acting or pretending. I do enjoy 2 b with u. I do like u, maybe already in love with u"

"Whoah n whos the lucky girl tonite?"...........the host again.

He walked toward my desk, whispered into my ear.....will u b my valentine?......

Dear diary.......

Im really grateful cz i have such a wonderful friendship fr girls in my gang n now i have a relationship with him. God really knows how 2 make me happy. I LOVE U............

I dedeicated this note 4 all my friends ........thank u 4 such a beautiful n amazing friendship n 2 the one that i care so much.........thank u 4 letting me know what love is. I love u all, happy valentine ♥ ♥ ♥

n lovely music 2 accompany u.....♥ ♥ ♥

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SnMoDDbEccE&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YTNSwOFUf30&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7N8fty79U6Y&feature=relmfu

I never found the words to say, You're the one i think about each day

Many relationships are broken, lost and changed because there is no commitment

'I love her cz of the way she treats me'

'I love him cz of the way he makes me feel'

'I love her cz she's so beautiful'

'I love him cz he fell down @ my feet with roses n jewels'

People often underlie that love things over sumthing that they r considered beautiful. It may sound romantic n do such a thing is not wrong @ all. However, sumtimes things get 2 romantic that we often hear people say it in movies.

Rarely out of them and maybe our own thinking

'I love her cz of the way she treats me'

What happens if she stops treating u the way u love?

'I love him cz of the way he makes me feel'

Then what happens if he stops making u feel that way?

'I love her cz she's so beautiful'

Three weeks later, she got an accident

'I love him cz he fell down @ my feet with roses n jewels'

Out of blue, hes broke that he couldnt buy u roses n jewels anymore

Rarely they r saying

'I love u cz i want 2'

That's commitment. commitment is a source of strength, not sumthing that makes people afraid to face it.

Commitment is a strength 4 a girl 2 c the good n the bad of her boyfriend, accept him when he's handsome n when he looks so ugly, yawning when he wakes up evry morning.

Commitment is a strenght 4 a man when he meets another girls n chooses 2 go home, has dinner with his girlfriend while sharing stories n laughing.

Commitment is a strenght 4 a father when he's not ashamed 2 introduce his son 2 his patners........'This is my son, he's in treatment cz of drugs n im proud of him'. Im sure his son will b in tears cz so many parents got mad, ashamed n expressed their anger by slapping his son.

Thats how far a commitment will take u.

As far as the ocean of life would b, as deep as it would b, i'll swim through it

As cold as it would b, as hot as it would be, i'll adapt through it

As strong the wind would b, so as soft as it would b, ill stand through it

But facing it together with the one u love, u know it wont b really that tough

Commitment will give u the strength 2 make u love sum1 unconditionally. Its tough but hey.....they will love u back the same way.

'I love you.....because i want to' Thats a powerful sentence, right there.

Some of us may have loved sumone cz of the shortly conditions. Cz he/she is kind, smart, even rich. Have u ever thought what will happen if he/she is mean 2 u, not as smart as before n broke. Will u still love them, then?

Thats y u need commitment. Dont love sumone cz of what/ how/who they r. From now on u should start loving sumone cz u want 2, so when sumday both of u have a hard time in relationship, ull say ' i will never forget the day when we fell in love'

Here we r.....May God gives us a ticket 2 find our soulmate, a ticket 2 arrive in sumone' heart.

~~~~~~~Inspired fr The test pack by Ninit Y~~~~~~~

As our two hearts has become one, is the most precious gift of love

Hhhmm Love

We think about it

Dream about it

Lose sleep worrying about it

When we dont have it we search for it

When we discover it we dont know what to do with it

We fear losing it

Its our source of pleasure and pain

We cant predict which it will be from one moment to the next

Its a short word

Easy to spell

Difficult to define

Impossible to live without.

Sometimes you have to just take a chance in love

You cant live your life amongst amound of "what if"

You have to follow your heart and hope for the best

Just remember that you dont choose love

Love chooses you

All you can really do is accept it

Feel its mystery when it comes into your life.

Thats why people call it fall in love

Cz you have no reasons to fall in love

You just fall like that

If you love someone cz you think that he/she is gorgeous

then its not love, its infatuation

If you love someone cz you think that you shouldnt leave him/her

then its not love, its compromise

If you love someone cz you think that you can not live without his/her touch

then its not love, its lust

If you love someone cz you think that youve been kissed by him/her

then its not love, its inferiority complex

If you love someone cz you think that you would hurt his/her feeling if you leave him/her

then its not love, its charity

If you love someone cz you think that you can share evrything with him/her

then its not love, its friendship

But if you feel the pain of the other person more than him/her even when he/she is stable

and you cry for him/her, thats love

If you get attracted to other people but stay with him/her without any regrets, thats love

If let him/her go knowing that he/she has to go but he/she doesnt want to, thats love

For me

To know who i love is.....

When being around that one

my heart beat faster with no reasons

When remembering that one

I smile with no reasons

When worrying bout that one

I will run in rush like theres no tomorrow

I cant really explain what i feel

But to love is..........

To have someone special

One who you can always depend to be there through the years

Sharing laughter and tears

As a partner, a lover, a friend

Whats love in ur point of view?