I won't give up on us even if the skies get rough

"Are you coming with me?" 

"Where are you gonna go?"

"I wanna go to the corn field over there..."

"Are you out of your mind? You know it's cloudy, it's going to rain soon..."

"Hahaha I know. Come on...You will like it."

He pulled my hand as we ran through the corn field. I could feel the wind, and hear the sound of thunder as the sky grew darker.

I opened my arms wide. It was drizzling. I looked up to the sky. I could feel the rain streaming down my face. I could smell the wet soil. It was so windy.

"Let's find a place for shelter..." He pulled my hand again.

We ran faster this time and  I could feel him holding my hand tightly. I knew it was cold but somehow I still feel warm.

"Wait!" 

"What?"

"I wanna feel the rain..."

"You're gonna be sick..."

"Please..." I knew he couldn't resist my begging eyes.

I smiled. I was running here and there till I got completely wet. I took a little mud and threw it at his shirt. He tried to catch me. I fell into his arms. He looked into my eyes deeply. I was enchanted by his eyes. His face was closer to mine. I could feel his breath. I closed my eyes feeling his lips on mine.

I heard the sound of thunder was so loud this time......

My sweat was all over my body. My heart was beating faster. I woke up in the middle of the night. I have the same dream every night.

I held my knees trembling. I cried in silence remembering the day after we got back from the corn field.

"Here....your birthday presents." He gave a bottle to me.

" What is this?"

"You'll know when you open it later, I should go home now." 

"Can you wait until the rain stops?"

"Its okay. It is not a heavy rain though."

"Sunny..." I called to him as he climbed upon his motorbike.

"Yup..."

I didn't say a word, I just embraced him.

He rode his motorbike through the rain.

I heard the sound of thunder one more time......

I couldn't stop crying. That was the last time I saw him as the man who loves me.

He got an accident. He has amnesia now. He lost his memory. One day when i visited him in hospital, a week after he was awake from his coma.

"Do I know you?"

"Yes Sunny, we know each other pretty close..." I tried to hold my tears.

"I'm so sorry cause I can't remember it...."

"It's okay. We will work together till you get your memory back..."

Even he couldn't remember the old me, the one that he loved. At least I could still meet him everyday as a friend.

It's still heavy rain outside.......

I opened the top drawer next to my bed. I took the bottle that you gave me on my birthday. You filled the bottle with lots of small paper rolls. You wrote on each paper how you really feel about me.

I took one...." Wondering why I like you"

Another one.... "No matter how much time has passed, I still miss you"

And another one.... "You meant everything to me"

I kept reading.... "I still think about you and you might know this"

............... " You are literally, one in a million"

Till the last one.... "I wanna grab your hand and take you where you belong, here inside my arms"

Deep down in my heart, I've never given up. Maybe someday you will remember our story again. Cause you are the light that can shine every room in my heart. And you are the only one who can drive away all of my longings

Fear not, for I am with you, be not dismayed, for I am your God, I will strengthen you

Our Father is a prayer that we say very often

When you wake up in the morning

Before the start of a lesson or work

When you wanna have your meal or also in other occasions

Have we ever crossed in our minds and in our hearts, 

something that we often do, sometimes it is easy to blur the meaning?

For example, Our Father prayer

Do we still really implement the meaning in that prayer?

One line in the Our Father prayer that should be our reflection is:

"Your kingdom come, Your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven"

When we pray these words, have we really wanted to make it happen?

In relation to the environment, have we really worked on it?

If the answer is yes .....

Of course the earth has become a fertile earth

and all of the wealth will be distributed evenly to everyone

If the answer is yes .....

Certainly there is no poverty and hunger

There is no war between man in a dispute over natural resources

There was no damage to the environment

No worries about global warming

And no natural disasters due to human error like floods and landslides

If all these things are happening,

it means we have not  prayed  "Our Father" heartily

In other words, we are not truly seeking to make the world into the kingdom of God

"Dear God, thank you for giving us this entire life.

Stand and Lead us O god

so that we truly wanna  become your will as our purpose of life"

Love means never having to say you're sorry

Only in fifteen seconds

You already locked my eyes

I couldn't see anyone else

But only you

Only by seeing your smile

My heart will be pounding

I couldn't think of anyone else

It's only you in my mind

Only by calling my name

Like hearing the voice of angel

It wouldn't stop ringing in my ears

But only your voice

Only by looking into my eyes

My heart has spoken

It could say I love you a million times

Cause it's never enough

Only by holding me in your arms

Like a miracle has happened

It could make me dreaming

I'm the one who you want to protect

Only by sealing my lips

You could make me fly to the sky

I would love to freeze the moment

Last forever

Even if you are far away

I will always whisper through the wind

I miss you, I miss you

The only person who loves you is me

Your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!

Who is God? God is a benevolent Father.

Before we ask for something of Him, He has already given it to us.

Just look around you,

look at plants and animals,

the earth and the sun,

moon and stars.

God gave all of it for free.

God created them for the happiness of human being

What does God expect from us?

There are two things that we are expected to do

First, we are expected to cultivate, maintain and preserve all God's creation.

We should care and do something about nature that he created

so the earth becomes a comfortable place to live.

Secondly, we are expected to ask for while working.

As farmers are asking for a successful harvest while planting and caring

We work with Him for the good of others

Therefore, we ask for His grace

so we can be able to take part in His work

We ask that our work is always blessed and bring prosperity to others

If I could ever see you again

When memory comes

I will close  my eyes

But I couldn't forget

Cause beneath the same sky

This world looked so much more beautiful

The time i was by your side

You said.....

Don't cry when I leave

I said....

How do I stop my tears?

My eyes which only look at you 

Stand still just like this

Wanted to hold you

Not letting you go

So I  regret it

My heart is shouting I love you

I know you are out there somewhere

Could you hear me now?

Cause of love

Even I feel exhausted

And  loneliness embraces me 

I could take them all

I put my hands together and pray

When will the bright morning come?

Only for you

Even if waiting is hopeless

But time means nothing to me

I would wait for you

Cause I know that I wont stay in sorrow anymore

If  I could ever see you again

Perhaps someday......

You are all I know of love, how can I ask for more?

If I had regrets.....

I shouldn't have looked at you from the first

Cause your image is etched in my memory

Absolutely indelible

If I had regrets.....

I shouldn't have smiled back at you

Cause your smiley face melted my heart

Remarkably dazzling

If I had regrets.....

I shouldn't have let you come to my world

Cause your shadow kept following me

Truly unstoppable

If I had regrets.....

I shouldn't have  heard about your love

Cause your words repeated in my mind

Really could not be silenced

If I had regrets.....

I shouldn't have let you kiss me

Cause you flew to the blue sky

Indeed miraculous

If I had regrets.....

I shouldn't have spent the times with you

Cause the stories between us kept floating in my head

Definitely unforgettable

If I had regrets.....

I shouldn't have shed tears for you

Cause You were not here

Tremendously drowning in emptiness

If I had regrets.....

I shouldn't have waited here for you

Cause I longed for our moments together

Heartily missing you

I am back to the place where your love has always been enough for me

I killed all senses of my love for you

When it seeded, i stepped on it

When it sprouted, i trimmed it

When it grew, i pulled it out

But love kept growing in my heart

I couldn't trim it anymore

The more I wanted to stab it

It grew twice than I thought

I never gave myself any chances

Cause I thought  it was impossible to be true

I tried hard not to admit it

That I was already  in love with you

I kept asking myself

How could I be possibly in love with you?

Was it wrong to fall for you?

Why did  I feel so terrified to admit it?

Our distance was only one step

When you whispered if I had ever loved you

I kept be in silence, motionless

Till you walked away and never looked back

It's sad to remember the past

When I found out the true feeling for you

When I denied everything

The worst denial that I have ever done in my life

And now, I am still here

It still  hurts badly even after so many years passed

I still can't run away from your shadow, not even a bit

Only regretting everything

Ki'taxa vathia' mes sta ma'tia sou ke i'da to me'llon mas - I looked deep into your eyes and saw our future

There is one time in our life

We truly believe

We find someone who can completely turn our world around

We tell him/her anything that we’ve never shared with others

He/she will absorb everything we say and actually want to hear more

We share hopes, dreams, goals for the future

We also share so many disappointments that life has thrown at us

When something  happens, we can’t wait to tell him/her about it

he/she is not embarrassed to cry with us when we are hurting

Laugh with us when we make a fool of ourself

One day maybe  he/she will hurt our feelings or make us feel like we are not good enough

But the other day he/she will build us up and show us the things about ourself that make us special

There is no pressure but only a quiet calmness when he/she is around.

We can be ourself and not worry about what he/she will think of us

Things that never interested us before become fascinating

Because we know they are important to him/her

We think of him/her in everything we do.

Simple things bring him/her to our mind 

The song we hear, the view we see

We may not be his/her first, his/her last, or his/her only

He/she  loved before, he/she may love again

But if he/she loves you now, what else matters?

He/she is not perfect

We aren't either

The two of us may never be perfect together

He/she may not be thinking about us every second of the day

Don't change him/her

Don't analyze

Don't expect more than he/she can give

No relationship is perfect, ever

There are always some ways you have to bend

To compromise

To give something up in order to gain something greater

The love we have for each other is bigger than these small differences.

So smile when he/she makes you happy

Let him/her know when he/she makes you mad

Miss him/her when he/she is not around

We open our heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day

But in opening our heart, we also will experience  love and joy 

For always we will go on beyond good bye

Some memories of happiness are not easy to forget

Cause every time other people ask about you

I will smile and say.....

Never thought I would meet you before

You brought love to my life 

Through your affection you were telling me

There would be happily ever after

Looked at your face again

I still found out that.....

You were the chord in every music I played

You were the rythm in every dance I performed

You were the crayons in every painting I drew

You were the words in every poetry I wrote

You led every step we took into the horizon of happiness

A few years passed.....

The sun warmed the whole earth in summer

The rain showered all flowers in spring

The yellow leaves fell in autumn

The freezing snow covered all the ground in winter

We kept our every moment in happiness

I locked them deep inside my heart

Our goodbye seemed like yesterday

I never regret spending time with you

Took all  the pain with me

Held all the tears of my loneliness

Still never forget sending prayers through the wind

No matter where you are, whom you are with

There's nothing else but happiness

There's more to love than only bitterness and lies

Life is full of surprises. Sometimes you will find out, it is full of happiness, but the other times, you might find out, it is full of bitterness.

Here I was, hiding inside my dark room. I remembered, Anna, my best friend, she told me, "You should move on, don't look at the past, one day you'll find someone who is right for you."

It was easy for her to say that, cause she doesn't know how it feels when I lost someone who I really cared about. It's hurt me badly. It has been a few months, I lost contact with him,

Suddenly my cell was ringing. Noel calling.....He said, he wanted to see me.

Almost twilight I was sitting in the cafe, waiting for Noel. Not long after that, Noel came. He looked different now. More matured. I had to admit it.

"How are you?" he asked me first.

"As you can see, I am alright, how bout you?"

"Just okay" he replied, "Congratulation by the way for your scholarship."

"Thank you."

There was a silence between us for a moment. It was a really awkward moment. We were so close for a long time and now both of us are just like strangers.

"When are you gonna go to Japan?" He tried  to continue our conversation.

"This sunday."

We ate our food in silence. He looked kind of nervous.

"What do you want to talk about?" I asked him.

"Connie.....I've told you once, if we broke up, i can get another girl easily, another one who is much better than you. But I was wrong. I wanna us to be together again." He tried to hold my hand.

I pulled my hand back, "What is wrong with you,  Noel?"

"I mean it," He wanted to convince me.

"Don't be like this Noel, you did this only cause you felt guilty for what you have done to me," I said quietly

"It's not like that, I really mean it." He looked so disappointed. "I wanna us to be together, not cause I feel guilty, but cause I finally realized, there's no one as good as you are and I still love you as much as the first time we were in relationship."

He gave me a purple box. He still remembered my favorite colour.

"Just think about it, please? I'll wait for you at the airport, can you give me the answer before leaving for Japan?" He put the box on my right palm, "Wear it if you say yes......"

"I'll think about it." I put the box in my bag.

Sunday at the airport. He smiled at me, "So........???"

I glanced at him. He stared at my neck. I was wearing a purple scarf.

He bowed sluggishly, "I get it........."

"Noel........."

"Hhhmmm........."

"Can you untie my scarf, please?" He put his arms around my neck and untied my scarf.

"CONNIE!!! Gosh, you almost made me get a heart attack......." I blushed. He could see that I was wearing a necklace with two rings on it, the one that he gave me the other day in the cafe.

"Three years is a long time. You have to wait for two years. Can you make it?"

"I will always try my best. Don't be a naughty girl in Japan, when you are back here, I wanna you to put one of those ring on  my finger." He kissed my forehead affectionately. I was drowning in his arms.

Three Years later.....

I got this short message on my cell:

"What date are you coming home? Everyone missed you alot here, especially ME"

I touched the rings on my necklace. I smiled........

 Like the sound of silence calling,

 I hear your voice and suddenly

 I'm falling, lost in a dream.

 Like the echoes of our souls are meeting,

You say those words and my heart stops beating.

 I wonder what it means.

What could it be that comes over me?

At times I can't move.

At times I can hardly breathe.

When you say you love me

The world goes still, so still inside and

When you say you love me

For a moment, there's no one else alive

(JOSH GROBAN)