One day In my sister's room
"You are beautiful," I was stunning, looking at my sister's shadow in the mirror.
She smiled at me. Suddenly she said, "I have feelings for Mathew. Do u think he's interested in me?"
I felt as if someone had choked me till i couldn't breath. I wanted to scream that i like Mathew too.
One day at my school
There, i saw him standing with smile on his face. I felt my heart beat faster. What a strange feeling. So confusing but make me happy at the same time.
"Hhmm i have 2 tickets for a movie tonight if you wanna go with me" He said
I felt my cheeks blushed. I was happy but didn't know what to say to him.
"Saskia???" He said again
"Hhmm, what? oh okay."
At Cinema
His hand clasped mine. Gentle but tight.
"Mathew," i whispered near his ear
He turned, looked at me right into my eyes. His face was so close, I could feel his breath. I turned my face to the other side, blushed. I kept wondering why he clasped my hand. I got a feeling, he is just into me, not my sister. I don't know what to do. My heart is split into two choices, standing for my sister or having him only for me.
Is it love?
Since the first time i met her, there is a desire that made me realize of mistakes that I had done in the past. By guarding her, I want to atone for that mistakes. By loving her, I want to give something that i've never given to anyone before. True love.
But, is he really in love with Saskia? Isn't it just a feeling of like without love? And does he deserve to have a relationship with a much younger girl, who may not know the meaning of true love.
With a giddy feeling, I heaved a sigh.
One day in the cafe
" There's something that i wanna tell you, Saskia, " He said it slowly.
He clasped my hand, so gentle n loving. Its hard for me to resist him. In the same time, i drowned in confusing.
Gabriela.....Mathew.....Gabriela.....Mathew.....Me
"How long have we been friends?" Asked Mathew
"2 years i guess......."
"I love you, Saskia......" Finally Mathew said the magic words
"I thought you consider me as your little sister."
"At first yeah, but after knowing you better, that's not what i feel. I love you more than just a little sister, more than just a friend, more than just a best friend."
I was speechless. Happy. Confused. Happy. Sad. Joy. Hurt.....
"Saskia, give me a chance."
But Gabriela is my own sister.
I bit my lip and said, "But we are different, I'm too young for you though"
"Who said you are an adult?" He smiled
"I'm serious, Matt!"
"Who said I'm not....."
"Matt, I cant......"
"Why?" He looked straight into my eyes.
"I'll prove to you, even though our world is different, it wont be a barrier" His voice has the seal of a promise in it.
In my best friend's house
"I love him."
"So, why are you so confused about. He loves you too, right?"
"Saskia, listen to me.....Mathew decided to choose you, not your sister. I think, you should tell your sister about this. Maybe your sister will get hurt, but i'm sure she will forgive you someday."
For Mathew
It's already late at night. Mathew came to my house.
"Mathew?"
"Are you going to sleep?".....I nodded
"I just missed you. I love you, Saskia. Love you too much."
"I love you too....." I said in low, intense voice. It's so relieved when finally I can express what i feel.
"You do?"
I nodded n nodded. He held me closer, embraced me with all the longing.
His fingers lightly traced the shape of my lips and he kissed me.
" You're in my arms and all the world is calm
the music playing on for only two so close together
and when I'm with you so close to feeling alive........
and now forever i know
all that i wanted was to hold you so close
so close to reaching that famous happy end
almost believing this was not pretend
now you're beside me and look how far we've come
so far we are so close..................................."
(So Close by Jon McLaughlin)
One of our dates
"If you are upset like that, you are truly like a little girl" He smiled playfully.
"But i love having a relationship with you. Sometimes you look like a little girl and the other time you can suddenly act like a mature one. You never make me bored."
He pulled my hand, " Sit here, on my lap."
"Weeww nahh, you'll say I'm a little girl again!"
"You will always be my little princess ever and little princess deserves to be lapped," He smiled with naughty eyes.
The greatest thing about love
"Both of you are so different, how can both of you fall in love?" people asked it so many times.
Mathew smiled, " That's the greatest thing bout love. It makes you blind, the other time you can use your logic too. Sometimes can make you more understanding and sometimes you wanna possess your beloved one"
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