About Love
Monday, December 3, 2012
Love me like the world is ending
Sunday, October 14, 2012
Thank you for loving me still
A cupid arrow will surely come into my heart
Sunday, March 11, 2012
You are the reason why I smile
Me.....Tried to clear my path for him and her
I'm tired hiding.I felt weary for being silent all the time. I just want to express what is hidden inside my heart. I'm not a girl for being fun. I'm not a stone, I do have a heart n feelings. I just don't know where I should start it.
He came into my life when I' have never thought what love is. From him, I learnt how to love and felt to be loved.
"Do you love him?" asked Mia.
With no doubt, I nodded, "Since the first time I met him."
"I just felt so foolish cause I have never realized that he loves another girl too!"
MIa said, " A guy is a human too, he can be confused too. Why don't you give him a chance to think and to choose?"
"He already decided to be with her, I gotta face the fact. I can't do anything anymore. Maybe I should let my story to be my past......"
Are you really ready to let it go?
"Adel???" Mia tapped me.
I turned my face, "Hhhmmm, just.....why can't he let me go when he already be with her?"
"Well, sometimes we should help a guy to decide something for him."
"I just can't be like this!"
I felt my heart hurt so badly. He's not meant to be with you, God will let you meet with someone who fits you someday,.....I tried to console myself.
Him.....And I thought the angel is you
God please show me the way.....
I know that soon or later I should decide who I wanna be with .....Adel or her?
I texted Adel this morning, asked to meet her and thank God, she agreed.
One thing that made me fell in love with Adel.....She's tough, She knows what she wants.
"You must be very disappointed with me."
"Yeah, when the first time I heard about you and her. But it's the risk of relationship, right?"
"Is it hard for you, Del?" What a stupid question.
"Maybe this is the best thing for all of us........"
"I'm so sorry, Del......"
"It's no need to apologize. I'll be alright. Really. Maybe we only fit to be brother and sister." She smiled.
But I still feel that love for her........
"You didn't choose the wrong girl. You got my blessed. You should be happy with her....."
Oh gosh!!!Why should I hurt a girl as angel as her. Suddenly I pulled her hand and embraced her. For a moment we stared at each other.
"You gotta promise me, you'll only love me as your sister?"
"I promise you......"
Can I? There's a doubt in my heart......
I can be tough
I can be strong
But with you, It's not like that at all
And I remember all those crazy thing you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
(Avril Lavigne)
If you love two people at the same time, choose the second one. Because if you truly loved the first one, you wouldn’t love another one ~ The Notebook on Twitter
I'm drowning without your love
One episode in my life.......
It was like hearing the sound of thunder when my mom told me that Sarah just passed away.
I lost my balance. I sat on the floor. Speechless. I cried in silence.
"Aunt Anne, can I see Sarah closer?"
She opened the cloth covering Sarah' s face. I saw her face smiling like she was just sleeping.
Someone tapped my shoulder. I turned and Sarah' s sister gave me a book. A diary.
"I have no rights to read this," I said quietly.
"You are the one that she mentioned on her diary, so it's yours."
In my room, I opened Sarah' s diary and suddenly an envelope fell from it. It's a letter.
My dearest..........
The wind is blowing
I close my eyes
Imagining one day we will be in love
I never stop thinking of you
So many wishes in my heart
Wanna hold you in my arms
Wanna see love blossoming in our heart
Wanna hear two hearts beating together
You have my promise
I choose to wait in eternity
My heart is never changing
I will never let you go
Even if I won't have a change to say "I love you"
Even though it's painful
I won't leave
I'll face it with smile
I've never thought that's what Sarah felt bout me. She gave wholehearted love for me. And I was too cowardly to admit that I care bout her, I love her.
Love is always beautiful and I am not gonna lie to myself anymore cause Sarah was the most beautiful story in my life. Even though I have to move on, she's gonna be there, always in my heart.
"Sometimes people only realize what they had after they lose it, so hold onto what you have and never let it go." ~ quotes from the notebook on twitter.
I thought this love would never end
Days changed
But my heart remains still
Always drawn to you
I've never got bored waiting
Waiting to be loved
But I'm just the wind that blew over you
Always invisible to you
Sometimes weary I told me to give up
Stop doing something in vain
But I could not do it
Cause all about you kept on stalking me
Like a shadow under my feet
How could I burn up all of my longings
They had been settled here in my heart
I kept waiting for an answer
But you kept being silent
You made me waiting longer
Like an endless road
Without any lights
I lost in a place of nowhere
Cause you never found me
I will never let you part, for you are always in my heart
"Can you come closer, hun? I wanna tell you something ....., " She said wheezing.
I embraced her, so she can talk close to my ear. I can smell the scent of drugs fr her breath.
"I love you....." She kissed me with her dry lips. She traced my face. I can see tears on her eyelids.
"Why are you crying, my love?"
"I'm just happy cause you are still here with me....."
I held her hand. " You should rest now, hun..... but promise me one thing, wake up for me tomorrow."
Hardly breathing, she smiled n closed her eyes.
I woke up this morning, still holding her hand. But her hand was colder, more colder than yesterday. I used to hold her hands and I could feel happiness fill my heart. Now, its just so painful.
Like A Castle built Upon A Sandy Beach
Gone Too Soon
Like A Perfect Flower that Is Just Beyond Your Reach
Gone Too Soon
Born To Amuse, To Inspire, To Delight
Here One Day, gone One Night (MJ)
She's gone.....
All my enthusiasm and happiness went along with her . How am I gonna cope with it? I cant see her face n smile again. I cant hear her voice again. Another chapter of my life is gone with so much pain.
I closed my eyes. I felt mentally tired.....
In my dream, I hear her whispering in my ear, "I love you. I will always love you. Please don't cry for me hun. One thing that you have to do is have a better life and be happy even without me. You will live with all the prayers that I'm gonna send through all the little angels. I'd love to see you smile again on your birthday. I'd love to see you get married someday in the church. I'd love to hear the laughter of your children. I'd love to see your hair turn white. I wont miss anything in your life, all your laughter, all your tears cause I will always there deep down in your heart. Be happy for me, my love......"
In your darkest hour
In your deepest despair
I will still care, I will be there
In your trials and your tribulations
Through your doubts and frustrations
In your violence
In your turbulence
Through your fear and your confessions
In your anguish and your pain
Through your joy and your sorrow
In the promise of another tomorrow
I'll never let you part
For you're always in my heart. (MJ)
I awoke from my beautiful dream. She was right indeed. I may shed a tear today for the love that I can not have. But have faith, for tomorrow another love will wait for me just around the bend. But wherever the road may lead me, I know it is a journey that worth to travel.
Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...
If you smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile...(MJ)
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
You've captured my heart cause your love shines right through me
"C'mon man, who are you staring at?"
I gasped. My best friend was standing next to me. We've been friends since we were in junior high school.
"Ssshhh!!! Don't say it out loud." My eyes glanced at Talya and glared at Daren.
One thing, He knows what I feel for Talya.
"It won't change anything if u only staring at her. Move on buddy!!!"
"Hhmm........."
"I'm just wondering what's so special about Talya anyway? Still a lot of girls are chasing you, they are more beautiful than her." Daren Laughed at me.
And I can't answer his question cause I myself can't find the answer either.....
You don't run with the crowd
You go your own way
You don't play after dark
You light up my day
Got your own kind of style
That sets you apart
Baby, that's why you captured my heart
Farewell party at school. I came alone. I was stunned. Talya was laughing with her friends in the corner. I walked toward her and smiled. I stopped in front of her and I felt my heart beat ten times faster.
"Would you like to have this dance?" I said hopefully.
"Hhhmmm yyeeaahh," She said sputtered.
I reached her hand until she fell into my arms. I hugged her as tight as I could as I do not want to let go. Does she know that I love her?
I know sometimes you feel like you don't fit in
And this world doesn't know what you have within
When I look at you, I see something rare
A rose that can grow anywhere
And there's no one I know that can compare
Three months later.....
I've never thought forgetting her is the hardest thing to do. Her face keeps appearing in my mind. She left a small hole in my heart and the hole is getting bigger cause I miss her everyday.
I just walked out of my English course when I saw her again there, sitting on the bench. Still the same Talya with her round glasses, long hair, t-shirt, jeans and sneakers. I was so stunned, I didn't watch my steps and hit one big trash can in front of me. That's so embarrassing.
"Are you okay? Oh my........It's you, Kane!!!" She screamed.
What makes you different, makes you beautiful
What's there inside you, shines through to me
In your eyes I see, all the love I'll ever need
You're all I need, oh girl
What makes you different, makes you beautiful to me
Days passed and I can't wait any longer.
"I need your help, hurry up!!!"
"What?"
"I just need your opinion about this cake."
"What's the cake for? I s it your birthday?"
"Nope. It's for a girl. I'm planning to woo her tonight."
"Whoah!!! Who's the lucky girl?"
"Just open the cake! What do you think?"
She looked very surprised. She could see there's a writing on the cake with chocolate cream....."Talya, would you be my girl?"
You got something so real
You touched me so deep
You see material things
Don't matter to me
So come as you are
You've got nothing to prove
You've won me with all that you do
And I wanna take this chance to say to you
She whispered in my ear, "I love you too, Kane. I always wanna be here for you, in your laugh and tears"
I was speechless. I pulled her in my arms. We danced. We kept dancing. All that we can feel is happiness like today is the endless day ever.
You don't know how you touched my life
Oh in so many ways I just can't describe
You taught me what love is supposed to be
It's all the little things that make you beautiful to me
Now, I knew that I wasn't dreaming at all. I was sitting here on the riverbank with her, looked at the sunset.
"I, Kane, I will always love you no matter what."
She put her arms around my neck n said, "Don't ever steal, cheat and lie. If you had to steal then steal my heart. If you had to cheat then cheat death cause I can't live a day without you. If you had to lie then lie beside me all night."
I sealed her lips with mine. The best kiss that I've ever had in my life.
What makes you different, makes you beautiful
What's there inside you, shines through to me
In your eyes I see, all the love I'll ever need
You're all I need, oh girl
What makes you different, makes you beautiful to me
Lyrics From BSB
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind, for me it happens all the time.....
I know from the first moment I saw you
My heart keeps on thinking about you
Every second, every minute
Where are you? What are you doing now?
From the moment I open my eyes
I only wanna see you and you again
I can't go on one day without you
I think I'm gonna be crazy
I don't know when you start to be in my heart
You caught me without me realizing it
I thought it's just a dream
Since when did I become this way?
I wonder if you know the way I feel for you
I wanna run to where you are
Say it out loud that I love you
Let the whole world knows it
Imagining if you were mine
Whispering and holding hands together
Singing our love like a song
Filling your dreams with the sweetest memories
There's nothing I want more
Will you tell me how you feel about me
I wanna know your heart
Cause I only love one person and it's you
Even though it's only gonna be the futility
I wanna keep waiting for you
Hoping that one day you'll say "I Love you"
Only loving me, only two of us